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I was six months pregnant. I was having bad dreams, which I hadn’t had before. I dreamt, of course, but not like that. I dreamt that I was walking through some forest, and I felt terrible, the baby was pushing inside, and after a couple of minutes it came out of my stomach, as it should be: red, wet all over, rolling its eyes and yelling: “Gennadya! I’m not your…”

Then I wake up and realize I was dreaming. My mom yells that I’m a jerk, and that’s why I’m dreaming. And at sixteen I had not yet had enough of it, I wanted to vomit so badly, I roared and fingernailed the bed.

Then I wake up and realize I was dreaming. My mom yells that I’m a jerk, and that’s why I’m dreaming. And at sixteen I had not yet had enough of it, I wanted to vomit so badly, I roared and fingernailed the bed.

I gave birth to my daughter in due time, but on the eve of delivery I had a dream: that I was no longer in the forest, but in a clearing, and that my daughter came to me and said: if I give birth – you will not be pleased, it is better to die! And she turned into a snake and put it around my neck. I woke up, went to my friend, drank wine and some pills at the same time…

My daughter died two hours after birth from airway obstruction. I don’t consider myself to be at fault. I may have given birth to a witch or a maniac, so I did the right thing. Of course, almost no one knows about it, and now you do. Thank you for your attention.

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  • 07/19/2021

    Alena, maybe it was just an obsessive thought? After all, 16 years too young, she is still a child, and then soon have to become a mother, all fears and worries. And how could your friend let you drink wine and pills, I would not let my friend

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  • 07/19/2021

    Didn’t you think you yourself would die from such a mishmash? Not to mention the baby. And for future reference, all women under the influence of hormones during pregnancy have dreams, sometimes delusional, like she is giving birth to a hedgehog, not a baby, etc. This is normal. Airway obstruction is a blockage of the lungs with amniotic fluid, which can be intubated (suction) or artificial ventilation. So what did your baby die of after two hours, since intubation is done right away? Did you give birth to her at home? I feel sorry for you that you didn’t realize anything. It’s a dark forest in your head.

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